“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” – Joshua 1:9
Sometimes one feels like bravery is hard to come by. When you are about to step into something new and unfamiliar, you wonder where it is. It was there the last time I needed it, but where is it for this new challenge? I found myself there recently and somehow found my “new” courage.
Over a year ago, I was experiencing headaches that continued longer than expected. I went and saw my primary doctor, who then referred me to a neurologist. I had a couple of tests, which revealed something behind my nasal cavity that had to be removed. Stunned and nervous, I faced what was to be an outpatient procedure. I was scared. Going under anesthesia is not something I take lightly. I worried about the “what ifs.” I realized I needed to stop, be still, and remember a few things through the lens of my faith.
First, I needed to remind myself that I was not alone. Scripture tells me not to fear for God is with me. Though I had been fearful at other times in my life and had gotten through, this felt different. Maybe my age?! So, I looked to a favorite scripture for courage, Isaiah 41:10, “So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand,” and there I found comfort.
I also reminded myself to trust in a God who loves me. I told myself that I did not have to walk the journey alone. God has been faithful in my life and has also given me a family and friends who would accompany me both physically and spiritually.
When the day arrived, I was still nervous, but now less so. I walked bravely to the appointment, prayed, and chatted with the clinical team, who also reassured me of the process. When I awoke in the recovery room, I saw the face of my beautiful daughter who had come to take me home. She cared for me, as well as my friends who followed up with texts letting me know they prayed me through.
Joshua 1:9, one of my favorite bible verses since my youth, often comes to mind when I need courage. I love this scripture. I know strength and courage go hand in hand. I’m also aware that not only is the Holy Spirit in and around me, but that I have a beloved community that walks with me through such a time as this.
Sandy D.
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