My life’s most significant journey has involved a wide road, two circles, a choice at a fork and a complete change of direction.
After leaving home at 19 in search of freedom and satisfaction, I chose to walk on a broad, well-populated trail. It started out feeling liberating, good and right. It led to turmoil and then despair. My chosen path had become an ever-descending spiral.
It was at that time that I was invited to various church events and concerts. Places I normally would never have been caught dead in! But to avoid offense I agreed to go. There the Word of God was spoken and sung. I kept a safe arm’s distance around me. Inwardly I mocked what seemed very naïve and Pollyanna-like.
Yet I couldn’t help but notice in the faces I saw, a different sort of people. Seemingly peaceful, joyful, full of life.
Back at my apartment resuming my usual modus operandi, I became more and more aware of the dichotomy between my life and what these people seemed to have found. I felt a growing conflict inside. Late one night, feeling completely tossed to and fro, I went out for a long walk around a lake.
Two Different Worlds
Ringing the lake in the dark of the night
Tug of war raging on in my heart,
The life I was living vs. lives I’d just seen
A battle of Light and of Dark
A conflict so fierce like a ripping inside
Would I trade all I knew for completely unknown?
I’d never before felt a splitting like this
Neither place that night feeling like home
One, familiar as skin but now stranger I felt
The other so polar to all of my self
As I couldn’t stride pond edge and path the same time
I could neither live both worlds
Then…Whole shift paradigm!
One night I surrendered my life and said “yes”
Narrow way I stepped on with my fears,
So uncertain inside yet a full turnaround
That has made all the difference these years
My baby step onto that narrow way has brought me the “abundant life” I had longed for. One day that path will lead me to my forever home with Him. All because of God’s great love!
May we “prepare Him room” in every part of our hearts. Savior Jesus, born to die for our sins, “Come in.”
“I have come that they may have life, and have it abundantly.” ~John 10:10
“Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter though it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.” ~Matthew 7:13 -14
Shared by Karen DiProspero